As I went back to my old neighbourhood, childhood memory flashes..as if I was where i was..but..so much has changed. As I wondered to myself.."How I long for death because for that few sec all that you had done,committed is as if being played backwards..saddness..pain...joy(a vicious cycle). A slow motion puzzle formin the picture..piece by piece like tears roundin down your cheek..it is all gone! Anw..the cats there sure became fruitful haha anw..I recalled during last sat svc..someone said.."Hope South Africa" hahaha darkness has come. Hmm..most of things in life often look as through there are endless problems, challanges(our mind plays a fool of ourself "huh?! u are not there yet"..i believe the problem does not lay on our surroundin but ourselves :) "look no further..look within~ The future depends on how u want it to happen now!!" "To be prepared to learn..is to be prepared to sacrifice" God just commanded us.."Follow me those who are weak..I will give u strength" 1 Tim 4:14-16 "Do not neglect your gift..15 Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress" Christ!! I exalt u Lord..I know what i must do.. I will fast