Hmm..I really had a great Birthday celebration, It was filled with a mixed feeling of sorrow and joy(my birthday was one April fool so what more can i expect) They say that men cry through complainin.. I say christian men cry through worshippin God. I never ever cried so badly as though I'm a kid who got bullied.. My story can't be explained to anyone or was it totally what i shared during passion celebration, It was an outcry to my beloved God. One that no one understands... during service worship I was already crying my eyes out(if any words would describe) altar call I cried even more What was I thinking that made me so disappointed? I had to be upfront. It was my personal group goal and someone. I start off with that *someone, If u were a non-believer coming to svc and givin attitude..my reaction would be "it is okay! haven't felt gods pressence yet" but if you are a believer and u didn respect the time of worship(I felt like using &*% ! and wake that joker up) but I didn, I cared for that *person and love him and all I could do was cry even more to God. I somehow knew things would happen but my emotions got the better out of me and even though my Caregroup celebrated my birthday by fooling me.. I was really happy but somehow troubled by the earlier event that took place. Thank God that Peter came and spent a one on one time with me, and I jus cried out to him about the sorrow I felt. Anw, let's push the bad things aside.. Okays I received loads of encouragement, gifts, food etc etc I WANNA Thanks 1.God 2.God(is it endless okay his creation) Congy book,Shaun cd,Rayson stress ball,Kat chocolate and her punches,Huiying food, Yihui for being the first to wish,Zhiwei sayin 5times H'bd,Peter book,Eevoon card,Derek his treat at Chijmes,Guodong for his handmade cake,keith his height haha,Deng his handmade card,Kevin treat,Zion sisters callin me Ah pa haha, Gid teasin me,hannah passin me a few cds not as gift haha but to update, Sunny&dov&marcus nice pool game,Jansen..many many many others that wished me happy birthday! I guess my greatest wish is to see mayflower grow man! All the fasting, prayer must come to pass..I mean Passion mth maybe over for others but for me.. IT is The Beginning, I won't back down, I'm here to Finish the race and win it and run to the altar to claim my prize. No more slacker Alvin(waiting to get fatter) I'm gotta fast till i see results(bone fletcher if i have to) Ya, let really chiong for God for in him, we get strong(The Bible gives u wings :)