This whole week, I was thinking about my life as a christian. What have I yet to grow?! Pride was occurring and so was negetive thoughts. I gotta admit that I was tired of serving hee. However today service was indeed an eye opener(no jus the physical eyes) I realised that my burden-some spirit came when i decided to have things, "My way". It was a painful lesson learned yet again. "For our Lord plans are higher than our ways". Well, my Lord.. it is not about serving..it is about loving :D One that is so hard for me, but Lord I know u can move mountains as u did to me..nathanael. In any case, I'm facing many cross-roads like work etc cos my mum wants me to work full-time and my allowance since camp had been cut off haha. These factors really did caused me to think about my investment in the kingdom. But in any case, God had always showed his faithfulness by making a way for those who love Him :D(I know it full well) I shall not be too concern about numbers, where in the heart of all.. it is people. I was too goal-orientated that resulted in the lack of God-based spirit. "This is my mistake guys, pls pray for me :D" So.. most of all, let's us have a habit of prayin before we plan.(if god is not in the picture..everything will surely be second best or worse) This christmas had indeed been a blessed one for me personally. "What is a leader who leads people to his own shadow, where there is one who created everything even ur shadow, Great is He that none can be compared to Him". Leadership is indeed not subject to be taken lightly.(I thought I was wokay) haha.. God had told me areas to improve. "I look forward to serving Him :D " THANK U DADDY GOD" heehee