"The true test of a man, the beginning of his redemption, actually starts when he can no longer rely on what he's used all his life. The real journey begins when the false self fails. On fri after prayer meet we had basketball and some ah beng picked a fight with me. As I defended the NE pp as they wanted to play and disrupt the whole game. Fist was closed and eye contact was made. My intention was of course to avoid the fight from even happening however that wasn't the case for the Beng. He even wanted to challenge 20 of us to fight haha joke. My mind was thinking, If he strike me, I will fight back. My stand was that as Christian man. We have to fight, we are not push-over.. that should be bullied by thuds. (Yo! christian soldiers not jus mr nice)By God's grace, no fist were being thrown at each other. The police came however to check out I.Ds. After the match, went to Amk Botak jones with Joshua. I so badly wanted to eat however my throat still hurts, it felt like something sharp was jammin my adam's apple bleah~

Anw, at night I was so tired. Then my mum came into my room and when she started to pour her concerns. I was like.."Need some sleep" haha Btw, i listen on and God really open the door as my mum started to flood me with all her problems and hidden thorns from her past. It was about my Dad. This new insight gave me a whole lot of how the big picture is. My respect for him as a father was like negative minus. Disappointment and a lost in true masculine heart that is why so many man in this world lack a true father figure.. until they know Jesus who gave all the credit to His Father.